Dear Reader, Let’s Talk (Day 17)
I’m just going to come out and say it: I’m nervous as shit today. I’ll go into why at the end of this post, but for now let’s just cover the surface of having these nerve wrecking feelings tumbling up and down my spine. Thing is, it’s a good nervous. Exciting even. See, I get these feelings every time I host a show or begin a new project and/or chapter in my life because obviously I don’t know what’s to come of it, but I’m excited of the possibilities it may bring, you know?
Let me ask you guys a question: when was the last time you had that type of feeling? I’m talking from the time you woke up in the morning until the time you laid your head to rest? I know there’s a lot of confident mufuckaz on this earth, but I want to talk to the ones that still get nervous about shit. I want to talk to the ones that still get excited about things they’re involved in. Isn’t that feeling like no other? I’m talking just CONSTANTLY running different scenarios through your head about what’s going to happen, how it’s going to happen, what might not happen, IF it’ll happen the way you want it to. It’s like you’re running through your own little playbook in your head and trying to figure out the BEST way to execute. One wrong step and things just might go left.
But then there’s the other side of your brain that’s just telling you, “Hey man, stop thinking so much and just enjoy the moment you’ve worked hard to arrive at.” Then there’s that. It’s like the little guy on your shoulder smoking a joint whispering “yo bro, just let it flow. You’re there for a reason.” And I get it, trust me I do. But there are certain things you just WANT to have a grip on. But I guess God wouldn’t put us in certain situations if hew KNEW we couldn’t manage to maneuver through, right?
I say all these thoughts to come full circle back to you: it’s ok, awesome, natural AND normal to be nervous and excited. It gives us that push, drive, determination and energy to excel in an important part of our life. It’s nothing to be scared of at all. You’re nervous and excited because you want to progress and flourish in the best way possible- no mistakes or setbacks. Be nervous. Be excited. It’s some of us who are just tooo cool for certain moments and I believe we cheat ourselves of the anticipation of moments that we know DEEP down we’re EXTREMELY excited about. But why? I mean I know you’re good at what you do but damn, are you excited to execute? Are you nervous to see if you can out do yourself from the last time? Those thoughts don’t run through your head? Well they run through mine, NIGGA!
Anyway, today I’ll be making my first “official” cable debut on BET’s 106 & Park for the first installment of The Miss Mykie Report where we’ll be discussing celebrity music news. It airs tonight. And you GOD DAMN right my ass is NERVOUS and excited about this situation. I’ve come along way in this blogging/hosting career of mine so this is a nice little milestone I’m arriving at. I guess this is the part of the post where I turn on Meek’s intro to his Dreams & Nightmares album. Yeah, that’s fitting for this situation. Half the feeling of reminiscing what I’ve come from and the other half designated to DESTROYING anything in my path to make sure I keep crossing milestones in this life of mine. Hold on, the beat just changed and shit is getting a bit authentic. Gotta go lol.
See ya tonight!