*looks at calendar*
Oops. Yes I know: my inconsistency with these things doesn’t rub you the right way. Trust me, it doesn’t rub other folks the right way either….trust me, I’ve been receiving earfuls about the aforementioned. I guess we can blame my editorial absence on stubbornness, laziness, timidness and selfishness. See, struggle isn’t a great color on anyone but it builds a foundation so specific to your story that sometimes we discontinue our own chapters in fear of actually seeing what we are capable of doing or being. Well, at least that’s what I’ve been learning. Me not writing my Dear Reader entries does that in my case. Gotta be more consistent and open up more. I digress.
Over the past couple weeks, I’ve realized a lot about myself when dealing with issues, hustle, struggle and adversity: I don’t talk that much lol. It could be my mother looking for an update on my love life (or lack thereof). My Dad asking how EYE am doing with my career and if EYE need help with anything (I try to do everything myself knowing damn well this man is pretty DAMN smart lol.) My sister asking me if I had a meal or not (anyone who knows me, I have the strangest eating habits). A young lady asking me to open up (My bad, love.) Or even my bestfriend, Niles asking me, “Yo, what’s the next move man…we gotta make some money.” I don’t talk. And it’s not that I don’t want to talk because ya’ll know I can ramble on and on and on If I have the room to, but detailing anything explicitly to ANYONE makes me feel weak. Yes, I know…that shit is dumb, but man that’s just how I’ve been wired the last couple years. So now, I’m here attempting to change that. I’d like to talk more.
I’d like to talk to my mother about the STRUGGLES of finding someone EYE can talk to, romantically. Mama Low knows I love romance. She’s seen bits and pieces of me care for a young lady, she knows how hard I go for the one I’m riding for. BUT, she’s also seen it tear me apart and put me in a dark place that I HOPE i’ll never have to travel to again. Maybe that’s what EYE am scared of: letting her witness my downfall. It’s not a good feeling, ya’ll. Knowing she’s within inches of her youngest gasping for mental and spiritual air but yet she can’t give me CPR. It sucks. Hell, thinking back on certain moments has me choked up now. But maybe this is what I needed. Maybe this is what was up in my head this whole time. And maybe this is why I wouldn’t let anyone get close to me. Maybe I was embarrassed to talk about it with my potential partner. I think this could be the start of me letting someone in because I’ve now clearly identified why the walls were up. Hol up, don’t start thinking I’m start falling in love today, tonight, tomorrow or next week….but I can tell you the stiff arm won’t be as visible.
I’d like to talk to my Pops about the struggles of finding the footing in this music industry, even though about 15 years ago he strongly advised me to NOT venture down this lane. Yeah, you were right Pops…..THIS SHIT BRAZY (Dad, if you’re reading this…I’ll explain “Brazy” to you the next time we have a brew lol). My Pops is a provider. My Dad is also somewhat blind out of one eye and doesn’t have the best hearing and YET he’s a provider. That right THERE should be every reason to get on track and even let him help since he’s not complaining. But see the way I’m built, I don’t want to be a burden to the OG. Nah, I never want to be that guy. I know…I know “Low, how can you be a burden to your own Father?” Didn’t I say I was wired differently lol? That man has suggested ideas for my blog, books to read, shows to watch, food to eat, liquor to drink, places to go…everything. Some I’ve took heed to, but others I somewhat shutdown because I don’t want his retirement stage of life to be dedicated to helping ME get right. But again, that’s my Father….that’s his job. DUH, Low. My bad, Pops.
Don’t worry Niki, I have a bacon & egg sandwich to my left but I had to let these words breathe…YA FEEEL ME?!?!
I’d like to talk to the women I DON’T talk to. Listen…I’m stubborn: let’s just call a spade a spade. If you scroll up to the part about my mother? You’ll understand it a bit better. Yeah I know, sucks to have to discover my inconsistencies THIS way, but it’s a start. And God no, this isn’t the only reason why I’m a closed book, but as stated before, this is a genuine start. I have to start opening up more. Explaining why I react. Explaining why I’m upset. Explaining why I become distant. Listening suits me better at times (well when I’m not pissed off) because when I try to spill my thoughts out I usually get frustrated and all hell breaks lose. And I do have to remember, talking isn’t always a form of arguing. Being defensive has pushed some of the most GORGEOUS WOMEN away from me. Dog, I’m talking 10’s with law degrees and jobs that could support me, you AND yo cousin, too. Don’t worry, we’ll talk.
Niles, WE’LL TALK.
In short, if there’s someone or something you need to talk about? Do so. My recent experience in just TALKING to folks has let me sleep a bit lighter at night. I’ve been able to think clearer about situations and believe it or not, NOT think about situations. In the past, I’ve just let things rock because either I’d be dumb enough to think they’d go away OR work themselves out. Nah my, G……..you have to talk things out. Now don’t get me wrong, I’ve also experience some recent situations where “talking” was kept to a minimum but everything was revealed that I needed to know. Usually I’d ignore and shut folks out but I opened my mouth, expressed how I felt. What THEY did after those things were expressed told me EVERYTHING I needed to know about that person and/or situation. But it was all because I decided to speak up and TALK. I know YOU have something pent up in that chest of yours, but something is telling you not to talk about it. Well my friend, I’m here to tell you otherwise: TALK!
P.S. I’m glad to be back.
I’m going to get straight to it ladies and gents: It’s been rough journey. Life changing/career changing rough. See the thing is when I’m ready to divulge (not entirely) into my hardships? I do. But the other thing is, I don’t vent/rant without providing a the outcome in which is pretty much positive %98 of the time, you know? What do I look like steady complaining about hardships and just walking off in the sunset like “Poor me, I’m going through a tough time”, right? That aint cool lol.
But this “Dear Reader” isn’t about the start off a bad time. Nor is it about telling you how I’m flying through bluer skies…..nah. This post is about keeping your composure DURING that rough patch. How do you respond to your friends, family, workers, GF/BF, strangers. Do you throw shade to them because YOU made a mistake? Because things didn’t go out as you planned it to go? Whose fault is it REALLY that you’re in this situation? If you can’t point the finger at ANYONE but yourself? You better keep that funky attitude under your own roof. That’s called “KEEPING YOUR COMPOSURE.”
Even when you’re in the comfort of your OWN home, that composure needs to be kept quietly in your back fucking pocket. Going through some of the things I’ve gone through, that’s how I’ve learned to deal with things and people: Keep cool because it ain’t no ones fault but yours. Now of course you can look at certain people and semi-point the finger, but it’s a majority your fault you didn’t realize things wouldn’t work out. No, that doesn’t mean you spazz on them at all. It simply means keep your composure and figure out a way to make things right for YOU.
Some people will go through shit and take it out on everyone in sight. Attitudes, snarky remarks, silence (even though I do the silence, but that’s just me at times). And then be all happy when the smoke clears and things are back to normal. Nah playboy, that shit is wack. If you KNOW your ass is going through something but you can’t deal with it in public because it’s that bad? Keep your ass at home. Go to work, put your headphones on and keep clear of people. But since life isn’t ALWAYS worked out the way we want it to go? I suggest you develop ideas on how to keep your composure. I strongly suggest it. You can’t be in a certain business without containing that composure when shit hits the fan.
I don’t want to get all preachy preachy on you during the middle of the day, but do understand if you’re going through a rough patch? It always could be worse. There’s something positive to be taken from whatever you’re going through right now. And whatever you’re going through nothing is permanent so keeping the composure is key. God is looking at you RIGHT now and waiting for you to SNAP so he can take that blessing away from you. I’m telling you off of experience ladies and gents. So when you have a moment, look up in the sky and quietly mumble “I’m cool, my G.” Trust me, IT WORKS lol.
That shit was dope right? You worked your ASS off yo get to THIS point because you just knew you were good enough to land in that specific position. The accolades and kind gestures have you feeling like a fucking/Queen because you worked so hard getting to THAT point. Can’t no one really tell you shit right now, huh? Man, this is a high that you would love to ride out till the motherfucking wheels fall off. Can it get any better? YES, YOU COMPLACENT FOOL! Follow me real quick.
This high? This monumental feeling of achievement that’s running through your body right now? Yeah, this isn’t SHIT compared to what you’ll feel when you REALLY get things rolling. This is just the tip of the iceberg; the game starts NOW. We work so hard to get to certain places in our life because we want the smell, taste and touch of success. It’s something we’ve desired since we could count from 1 to 10 without our parents helping us. Or when we walked from the couch to Mommy/Daddy’s arms for the first time. You screamed, laughed and giggled not because your parents were doing it but because that was your FIRST taste of success. And though you probably couldn’t actually say “YES, I SUCCEEDED” you were smart enough to understand you accomplished something great early in your life.
This is THAT. You accomplished something great in your life, but lordy lordy lordy it only gets better. But the trick is not to get lost in the shuffle. Not to get lost in the congratulations from every corner of your life. There’s a pie baking in the oven right now; it’s called HUMBLE. It comes in alllll different flavors too. Best thing about HUMBLE Pie? It’s FREE! Let me tell you a little story about when EYE had to serve myself a WHOLE HUMBLE Pie.
My last year at Howard University I received the On-Air Personality of the Year Award for Black College Radio. I believe this was back in April of 2005. Man was I on a fucking high. And because I was on a high? I thought I was going to land a NICE gig coming out of school. My logic was: I’m the hottest thing smoking in black college radio, where’s my JOB? Boy was I wrong and clueless as to how shit worked in the radio lol. Needless to say, I didn’t get a job in radio. I mean I got a job, but it was at the Front Desk of a Double Tree Hotel lol. You see where I’m going? I got complacent and wanted the world to come to me instead of going out into the world and taking what was mine.
Being on 106 & Park is NO different. You know what? I’m going to act like that shit didn’t even happen (not really, but u get what I’m saying lol). I smelled success yesterday. Not even smelled it, I got a WHIFF of it and BOY was that shit delicious. I want MORE. But I’m going to be SMART about how I attempt to obtain it. So I want you guys to take this lesson specifically and apply it to your grind, struggle, hustle and journey. Complacency is NOT the answer. Hell it’s almost like a mental drug and can turn TOXIC if it’s abused. Got it? Good. I out.
I’m just going to come out and say it: I’m nervous as shit today. I’ll go into why at the end of this post, but for now let’s just cover the surface of having these nerve wrecking feelings tumbling up and down my spine. Thing is, it’s a good nervous. Exciting even. See, I get these feelings every time I host a show or begin a new project and/or chapter in my life because obviously I don’t know what’s to come of it, but I’m excited of the possibilities it may bring, you know?
Let me ask you guys a question: when was the last time you had that type of feeling? I’m talking from the time you woke up in the morning until the time you laid your head to rest? I know there’s a lot of confident mufuckaz on this earth, but I want to talk to the ones that still get nervous about shit. I want to talk to the ones that still get excited about things they’re involved in. Isn’t that feeling like no other? I’m talking just CONSTANTLY running different scenarios through your head about what’s going to happen, how it’s going to happen, what might not happen, IF it’ll happen the way you want it to. It’s like you’re running through your own little playbook in your head and trying to figure out the BEST way to execute. One wrong step and things just might go left.
But then there’s the other side of your brain that’s just telling you, “Hey man, stop thinking so much and just enjoy the moment you’ve worked hard to arrive at.” Then there’s that. It’s like the little guy on your shoulder smoking a joint whispering “yo bro, just let it flow. You’re there for a reason.” And I get it, trust me I do. But there are certain things you just WANT to have a grip on. But I guess God wouldn’t put us in certain situations if hew KNEW we couldn’t manage to maneuver through, right?
I say all these thoughts to come full circle back to you: it’s ok, awesome, natural AND normal to be nervous and excited. It gives us that push, drive, determination and energy to excel in an important part of our life. It’s nothing to be scared of at all. You’re nervous and excited because you want to progress and flourish in the best way possible- no mistakes or setbacks. Be nervous. Be excited. It’s some of us who are just tooo cool for certain moments and I believe we cheat ourselves of the anticipation of moments that we know DEEP down we’re EXTREMELY excited about. But why? I mean I know you’re good at what you do but damn, are you excited to execute? Are you nervous to see if you can out do yourself from the last time? Those thoughts don’t run through your head? Well they run through mine, NIGGA!
Anyway, today I’ll be making my first “official” cable debut on BET’s 106 & Park for the first installment of The Miss Mykie Report where we’ll be discussing celebrity music news. It airs tonight. And you GOD DAMN right my ass is NERVOUS and excited about this situation. I’ve come along way in this blogging/hosting career of mine so this is a nice little milestone I’m arriving at. I guess this is the part of the post where I turn on Meek’s intro to his Dreams & Nightmares album. Yeah, that’s fitting for this situation. Half the feeling of reminiscing what I’ve come from and the other half designated to DESTROYING anything in my path to make sure I keep crossing milestones in this life of mine. Hold on, the beat just changed and shit is getting a bit authentic. Gotta go lol.
See ya tonight!
Wait, why did you do that? Yeah, that? Why did you erase that grand idea in your head? For what? Oh, you think it’s not feasible because it’s out of the box and you don’t have the means, funds or resources to get it accomplished, huh? BULLSHIT. I come to you from an honest position because lord knows how many times I’ve had a plethora of ideas swarming in this peanut size head of mine but diminished my OWN reality because I just didn’t believe enough.
Maybe I didn’t have the right energy around me? Or maybe the momentum wasn’t correctly placed to where I wanted to go off a previous high to get even higher. But think about it: Why can’t you do what you’re thinking? Is it illegal? Probably not. Are you paralyzed? Hell, even if you were, a handful of things are STILL within reach. What was it exactly that pulled you back from dreaming so god damn big? Was it a certain girl/guy? Maybe it was your job sucking the CREATIVE MENTAL out of you everyday. There has to be a concrete reason as to WHY you thought it wouldn’t be a cool enough idea to execute.
Listen, a GOOD friend of mine brought me an idea this morning, right? Now I’m already riding a high from several other opportunities I’m involved in thus far in 2013 so I’m feeling pretty fucking good. So my friend explains this idea and I’m like “Wait, a god DAMN second: is this really possible?” At first I told him he was dreaming too big, but then I realized, “who in the FUCK am EYE to tell a FRIEND that their dream is too big? Too grand? Shame on me. So I switched my mind frame and rode shotgun with him.
As friends, you are supposed to ASSIST your friends in their dreams. Help them realize that anything that THEY’RE thinking is attainable. Now, if there are better options to present for these dreams of theirs, then by all means present them; that’s why you’re there. Never….and I mean NEVER shut down your friends dreams and aspirations. RIDE with them until the end. Share their enthusiasm, don’t kill it. Don’t you EVER kill your friends dreams.
My lunch is here and I’m on a tight schedule today, so I leave you with this simple gesture: DREAM BIG, MOTHERFUCKER (Sorry Dad, I know you hate when I curse in these posts but today called for it lol. Love ya)
New Year, New You huh? SHUT THY HELL UP! What? You’re just going to wipe yourself out on January 1st and become this new person with awesome features and a completely different mental because the world got a year older? No, that sounds explicitly retarded. Who said there was something wrong with the old you? Didn’t my nigga Shakespeare say “To thine own self be true?” I could’ve SWORN he did. To me? That means, be true to who YOU are. Don’t wipe yourself clean because of the cool slogans implemented by the society we live in. However, what you CAN do is sharpen up and refocus. Follow me for a second, will you?
You probably made your list of resolutions about how this year is your year to get your shit right, right? Got yourself a gym membership. Poured out all your liquor. Done dealing with bullshittin’ ass nuccaz and nuccettez. Gonna go to work all early. Gonna put more effort into generating more revenue and ideas. All because it’s a “New Year, New You, huh? Why did you wait until December 31st to fix and alter these things? Just so you know, January 1st is not a magical day where all your social, career, financial, domestic, and personal imperfections just go the hell away. Sorry to break it to you, they just don’t. No for real, they do NOT. I know the aura of NYE gives off that impeccable vibe that everything wrong in your life is now gone, but my nigga? It’s STILL there.
What you SHOULD’VE been doing is examining these imperfections and figuring out the best way to generate change, gradually. You can’t force, unless they’re detrimental to your health and those around you, change. It’s a process. And there’s not a darn thing wrong with gradually altering your wrongs and imperfections. I mean let’s face it, none of us are perfect, nor will we ever be.
For instance, you’re supposed to be at work by 10am everyday, but you’re always arriving at 10:45 huh? Ok, the change will take some time, so try waking up a tiny bit earlier everyday. Like I said, it’s all a process that we must endure before a total change takes place. There are plenty things that I need to work on and believe you me, a nigga has been working on them. But again, all these “changes” have been taking place before NYE. It doesn’t sit well with me that some folks think NYE is the only time of the year we can change the things that we don’t like or need polishing.
Everyday this year you should work on polishing whatever is that you don’t like about you or your daily routine. Prioritize these changes as you see fit and understand these changes will NOT happen overnight. So when NYE comes BACK around in 364 days? You won’t have a shit list of things you’re going to change because why? You’ve been working on them allllllllll year. Of course you’re not going to be perfect as stated before, but waiting until NYE is NOT going to make it any easier.
And another thing, EVERY year is your year. What? You take certain years off or something? Why? Nah, fuck all that, EVERY YEAR is your year until God decides you’re riding shotgun with him upstairs. Put your best foot forward EVERY DAMN DAY this year. You deserve it, your friends deserve it, the world deserves it, your family deserves it. Right? Right. Ok, bye!
Yeah, it’s been a long god damn time since we last spoke, huh lol? Frustration, laziness and distractions kept me from opening my mind with you guys and I apologize. Ok, now that THAT’s out the way, what do YOU value?
Really think about his question before you go blurting out a thought. Sit with it for a minute while you scroll though Twitter looking for an interesting conversation and/or avi to interact with (no #Catfish lol). What do you sincerely value in the different facets of your life? Professionally? Let’s head there first, shall we?
I’ve covered the topic of appreciating your space in the work place, right? Sacrificing, working hard, appreciating what you do and the ones around you right? But what part of that journey did you value? Of course you didn’t start out in the position you were in; no one did. You were that intern before. You were that junior executive before. You were that mail room employee before. Your salary wasn’t respectable but you had your sights set on the 6 to 7 figure lifestyle didn’t you? Of course you did. But do you remember that process of getting there? The sleepless nights? The constant reinventing of a specific proposal because the higher ups thought it sucked. Did you value that process? Did you take ANYTHING from that journey? Does the result outweigh your experience? Do you value that more than what you’ve learned over the years simply because you can now order someone ELSE to do your dirty work? Be honest with yourself right now.
What about that relationship you’ve been longing for? Yeah,m the one you’re in now. How much do you value situation. Like anything worth having, I’m SURE perfecting the dynamic between the two of you was NO easy feat. Hell I’m sure you two are STILL working at it right? But what is it that you VALUE about perfecting that dynamic. The fights? The milestones? The learning experiences that he/she has brought you through? Off TOP, you should be able to blurt out at least 3 things you value about your partner. I mean if you can’t, what’s the point of it? Oh? You’re just tolerating them until something else comes along huh? Yeah, smart idea. I’m not saying you have to go home and bring him/her a gesture stating you value them but every so often those words could do wonders more than a present can, no?
I woke up this morning just thinking about past experiences I’ve been through and what they’ve taught me. I went through various situations that pissed me off, brought me joy, handed me strife, caused confusion, activated tears and every other emotion under the sun. I then took each situation and focused on what kind of value came from it. Though some of the experiences I brought to my own attention, I focused on what value came from it. Whether it was the value of the lesson, the value of myself, the value of a specific person or whatever, I thought long and hard and I’m glad I did. It sparked this entry. And now I want to spark the idea of “value” in your mental. I can’t tell you who or what to value but you have to value SOMETHING, right? Right. Before you go, I’d like for you to watch the video below and tell me what you pull from it, cool? Thanks.
See, there are two different ways I could look at this entry today. I could be beat down on an issue that you’ve been going through over the past couple hours, days, weeks and/or months and continue that self pity streak you’re stuck in right now. Or, I could sit you up in that desk chair, wipe your mental tears and fix that struggle face so we’re back on track to greatness. Follow me for a quick second, if you will.
Whether you like to admit it or not, and it might be a hard pill to swallow, we draw inspiration from our peers: be it negative or positive. We may see something they’re doing, which we don’t agree on and strive to NOT go down that route. But that’s a rare occurrence. And then there’s the positive route, the main inspiration from which this entry was born. I have a good friend named Rae Holliday (from the Fashion duo, StuffFlyPeoplLike. Sup Gabe! ). Met him back in 2008 during my early BET days. I didn’t know the kid from a hole in the wall, but he was bleeding positive energy from the VERY start.
From that point on, we tackled red carpets, press junkets, club outings, media trips, and award shows together. If it was something popping? Rae was ALWAYS there. RARELY have I seen Rae jump out of character. I could always count on Rae to have a good time wherever he was at. Last night, Rae attended Jay’s show @ The Barclays Center in which he was in the VIP D’USSE Cognac section of the arena. That section was filled with the who’s who of the night like Angie Martinez, Melanie Fiona, Queen Latifah and one of Rae’s favorite people on EARTH, Beyonce.
I was following Rae’s Instagram and Twitter updates so I saw his excitement escalate from point A to point Z. I went to sleep and then woke up to THIS from Rae’s Instagram account. And then it occurred to me, just like Rae, we ALL deserve this. What is “THIS” you ask? This is success. Happiness. Joy. Recognition. We ALL deserve it. Clearly, Rae’s accomplished MUCH MUCH more than just partying with Beyonce at The Barclay’s Center, so that’s not what this is about. It’s about how FAR Rae has come from 2008 until now. Listening to Jay spit “Where I’m From” while Beyonce dances in front of Rae is a mere strand of hay in Rae’s haystack.
See, sometimes I don’t think we give ourselves enough credit when it comes to our own accolades and feats, me included. We may observe some of society’s more accomplished figures and sometimes even our own peers and beat ourselves up over the facet we’re not THERE or ahead of them. And in that mental drift, we forget to look in the mirror, look at our accomplishments and say “You Deserve This.” All the hard work you’ve put in? You deserve to smile and relish in that light for a second. Why not? Cause you don’t have a black card? Because you don’t have a chauffeur? Because you can’t get up and take a vacation whenever you want? Ahhhhhh foowy lmao.
Are there things you can fine tune and go a little harder on? Fuck yes. Hell, Jay-Z thinks that. Bill Gates thinks that. Will Smith thinks that. Oprah thinks that. YOUR PARENTS think that. We all do. But at one point or another, these people have ENJOYED the fruits of their labor because they’ve worked HARD for it. See “Otis” for Jay and Ye’s “I DESERVE THIS” moment lol.
I can’t force you to sit and think about the stuff you deserve and don’t deserve, only you can do that. Only YOU know how much blood, sweat and tears you put into your craft to really digest how much success you should be getting out of it. Me? I’ve been tackling this hosting thing for a good year and a half now. Scared shitless when I first started it, my best friend NilesG will tell you I was a bitch when I first started hosting parties. But he believed in me and told me to KEEP PRACTICING. So, that’s what I did. Gig after gig, I got better and better. Meka from 2DopeBoyz, another great friend of mine, can tell you about my progression because he’s seen it first hand. I can also say that bout his DJ’ing. The kid taught himself about 2 years ago and just finished DJ’ing a Kendrick Lamar show for BET 2 weekends ago lol. AWESOME SHIT. Oh, I hosted that show too. I digress.
Point I’m trying to make is I’m on the verge of closing in on a big hosting gig in the coming weeks and it just hit me: I DESERVE THIS. I put in work to get to where I’m at. It’s been a long and tiresome road, but I wouldn’t travel it any different. And that’s how I believe you guys should look at it as well. “You Deserve This.” You’ve EARNED those stripes. You’ve went to war to be recognized for what you’re good at. So, before this day is done? Relish in what you’ve accomplished and get RIGHT back on the grind to earn more!
Alright, I’m hungry and I been working hard all morning. Hope you guys understand where I’m coming from.
Low “I Deserve This Grilled Chicken Wrap In My Fridge” Key
This industry, no scratch that, this LIFE we live is competitive as all hell. Every day we’re fighting for a top position on every totem pole. Whether it be financially, socially, career wise…we’re all looking for a top slot. And within that journey to the top we tend to forget, ignore, knock down those that are assisting us with said tasks. And it’s not on purpose, it’s just we feel like there’s not enough time to look back and say “I Appreciate You.”
It’s no mystery we ALL want to succeed, but let’s look at the spot we’re all in right now. Someone helped you get to that point right? If not solely helped you, but had SOMETHING to deal with it? You appreciate them for that right? Have you told them? A quick text, phone call, email, g-chat, aim message, tweet….something. It doesnt have to be long and drawn out, just a quick “Yo, I appreciate you. Have a great day.” That type of talk goes a LONG way.
Some of you are probably in a relationship that’s hit its bumps in the road every now and then. He/She may nag you from time to time or bug you about things you need to be doing or should be doing. 9/10, it’s not out of jealousy, but simply encouraging you to do better and better. Appreciate them for that effort. It takes a lot out of someone to remind ANOTHER person to be better at whatever it is they’re doing. They’re doing it to see you succeed, not to give you a headache. I know you may be gritting your teeth to this, but sit back and observe the times they’ve so called “nagged” you. If that issue revolves around the betterment of you and your life, show your appreciation.
This isn’t really long and drawn out as my last joints, but I was in the shower this morning thinking about how sometimes I don’t appreciate my TRUE friends who push and pull with me on a daily basis about becoming a better person and better “brand.” Over the past two days, I’ve received “pep talks” and “im proud of texts” conversation from key people in my life who’ve seen me grow from my early years in college to this very day. And to those people, I appreciate you. Sincerely.
My Dad just started reading these entries not to long ago. A book he gave me about a month ago inspired me to start posting these “Dear Readers” up because it triggered something in my brain. In addition, these are used as a self-reflection for the things I’ve been going through over the past months. It’s helped…A LOT. But in all honesty, it wouldn’t have been possible if that book wasn’t placed in my hands. And I have my Dad to thank for that. So Papa LowKey? If you’re reading this, which I know you are. I appreciate you Big Homey! Hey look, I haven’t cursed yet lol. I know he’s proud about that lmao.
Let’s get back to the email responses: LKUHTN@Gmail.com. Hit me up with a quick “Who I Appreciate” message of who you appreciate and why. I don’t need names, but just briefly describe the person and the role they’ve played in your life and WHY you appreciate them.
I’d like to send my sincerest condolences to the family of Chris Lighty. RIP.
Low “UHTN readers? I appreciate the hell out of you guys.” Key
Hey man, GET OVER THAT SHIT. You holding on to that grudge like it’s the golden ticket to the Chocolate Factory. I can’t tell you when to get over something, but at SOME point you’re going to have to rid yourself of that mental burden which at this point shouldn’t be a factor. I mean if it happened yesterday lol? That’s different, but I know you’re holding on to something from months ago. Let it rock, my G.
Why do we hold on to these grudges though? Do we like the pain it puts us through? Are we attempting to stay mad at the person so they SEE how much stress they caused because of their idiotic thought pattern? We think we’re putting them through pain when in reality they might not even give three shits about the situation you’re mad at, so why should you?
Let me tell you: grudges block your blessings. They carry over into other situations whether it’s work related, friendships, domestic situations….hell even family stuff. Our holding on to grudges also serve as a form of protection if you think about it. You’re holding on to whatever he/she/they did to you because you want them to see how mad you are AND you don’t want any one ELSE to get that close to hurt that ass either. At least that’s why I did it before. Can’t do that.
Address your grudge. Step up to the person and/or situation that hurt you, examine that shit and do your BEST to protect yourself from it in the future. Fucked up shit will ALWAYS happen to you, that’s just life. The key to that is how you HANDLE it after it happens. Some of us have this thought process that we can control everything which in turn drives us up the wall when we can’t. CHILL. ON. THAT. SHIT. Seriously lol.
Now like I said before, there isn’t a timeline as to when you have to let grudges go but as long as you’re contemplating getting over said grudge, your first steps to recovery have begun. We’re all EXTREMELY different and stubborn in our own ways. Hell, I’m just now getting over certain grudges from years ago. Yes I know…what can you do. But at least I’m getting over them. Some work related, some domestic related. It’s all relative. But, I’m taking the steps necessary to let that shit roll off my shoulders now. I sincerely hope YOU guys can do the same. FEEL ME!
I told ya’ll, this is a self-discovering ride that you ALL are on with me. Make sure you’re examining yourself in the process. Cool? Cool!
Low “If you don’t get me anything for my birthday on September 3rd, I’ll only hold THAT grudge for 1 month lol” Key